I've never really been able to answer the "what makes you drink" question. People assume we are just depressed or trying to bury something, which is often true but not the root; we drink when our team wins, we drink for the holidays, we drink after a bad day at work, we drink over relationship problems. We drink when we are happy, sad, stressed, whatever. One time I had over a year sober and went into a gas station to buy a red bull then walked out with 2 big DIPA's. No clue why. I was having an awesome day and my life was headed in a good direction. I didn't even process what I was doing in the moment. I went from one year sober to about two years very unsober just like that. I hate this phrase but it is a very slippery slope. There is a reason that there are guys with 50 years sober that still go to AA twice a week.