Frank
Sasquatch
Thanks buddyKeep it up! Stay strong! Praying for all the warriors!
Thanks buddyKeep it up! Stay strong! Praying for all the warriors!
stay strong Frank....hope to see you soon!Today I start what I hope will be my last week of chemo and I have mixed emotions. As those of you that have been following this thread already know, I’ve been here before. My doctor warned me that it may come back with a vengeance and it did. So now I wonder if it will come back again and that worries me because they can’t administer this form of chemo again. He spoke of doing a maintenance plan with a drug that is similar to what I’m getting now…..I hope I don’t have a negative reaction to that one. Stupid fears that I can’t seem to purge from my brain, but I did come by it honestly.
On the cool front……my riding is improving and I am definitely getting stronger. I did a 9 mile ride at Allaire on Friday last week and I felt great and was not super exhausted when I got home! Progress!!
I just want to thank you all for the continued calls, emails, and texts of support! I am truly humbled by everyone’s love!!
Good luck on your new venture!Today marked an interesting day for me, I began the 31 challenge, I resigned from work, and I called my oncologist office to go forward with my treatment. Resigning From work was a tough one but considering that I don’t know how I will feel with weekly maintenance chemo, I thought it best to resign. Everyone in the company that I informed in the corporation wished me well and would welcome me back should I decide to do so…..but I don’t want to. The last month I’ve been driving the Mrs daily to see her mom at the “home” and it made my mind up for me. Why are we so worried about living a longer life if doing so means you spend who knows how many years staring at tvs all day and possibly having you mind go away. I see the residents sitting in their wheel chairs in the hallways just staring into space. That is not for me, so if the man upstairs gives me 5, or 10 more years, I want to enjoy retirement while I can. Better to die at 70 because I crashed into a tree than at 80 drooling and pissing myself. Granted I could to the later now but I don’t drink anymore sooo.
Next week I need to apply for permanent disability and I really have no clue where to start, I guess the social security office. Regardless my doc says his part should guarantee me coverage so we will see what happens.
For now I will ride my bike daily and attend as many tm sessions as I’m able, I had missed them and I was glad to get to 2 sessions this past week. View attachment 187916View attachment 187917View attachment 187918
Love you too my friend. You may need to take another PTO day soon. LolLike most things I write, It just doesn’t read the way it sounds in my head….but….A couple years ago, the universe made it abundantly clear to me that the only certainty we have is the moment we find ourselves in. There are no safe bets, no guarantees. I both support and applaud your decision to take charge and actually “live” your life. Love u brother.
Day one of maintenance chemo. Not quite sure what that will entail time wise, but I have ride plans later today. So I will be getting a steroid, short term anti nausea medication, and my 2 chemos that I always got….just not as much. My cancer is very aggressive according to the doc and I concur from bitter experience. But if this is what it takes to stay alive I’m in! Maybe I should hit a gym in order to take advantage of the steroid! Lol
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I will be keeping myself busy with riding, 2 Tm sessions this week, and visiting mom in law at the “home “ every day. The tough part is trying to figure out how to get permanent disability but the good news is that there are folk at the lab who know about this stuff. I swear these are the nicest and most caring people on the planet so I’m not really disappointed about having to come back….it’s like visiting friends.
Glad to hear that riding is making you feel better. I fully credit (blame) you for influencing my decision to go for 31 days vs accepting that I'll just do the 20 days of July Challenge, even though I had to use a Mulligan. Happy anniversary.I’ve been feeling good lately!!! Doing tm sessions (even though most won’t let me actually do much) but still getting my hour ride in. I love that the Halters Challenge came up and I committed to it as I feel I’m getting stronger as we go on. Last night I noticed something unusual when I dismounted from the bike, I wasn’t hunched over and feeling like I was 100 years old. I was able to stand right up and load my bike rather easily….it’s funny about the little things in life!!
Today I went to the Social Security Office to try and get my disability set up. Now I know you can do it on line but to complete the process they need to send an access code by mail which I never got 🤦♂️ Go figure. But to my surprise I was treated nicely and they helped me and I was out in 30 minutes. I went home and finished the process on my computer so now I wait. I feel real funny about applying as I’ve worked my whole life and would rather continue, but the chemo messes me up for a few days and doc says I shouldn’t go back to work soooo.
Friday will be the wife and my 32nd anniversary! I’m very happy to be able to make it and I will try to make it special for her, she’s been through so much. I will look at every holiday differently from here forward as each is like a milestone for me now. I think I will have a nice big steak!!!