I thought about how fortunate of a human being I was during that time. I mean, it was a long day, and I was tired, and sore, felt like crap to be honest..but I got to choose to do this. To come out here and try something that i know is going to turn every last bit of me into mush. I know that there are people who feel crappy every day and cant help it, they might not have a choice, but i did...so no matter how i felt i wanted to appreciate where i was and what i was doing, and who i was with. A lot goes through your mind when you are paddling in the dark, on autopilot.