Well I just wanted to say "Hello" after my 2 or 3 week lay-off. I started new job two weeks ago and I have been by turns busy, tired, or both at any given hour.
I have the next two days off and plan to do work for school and try to rest when I can. Teaching is a tough job and I am under much more stress than ever before, but I think that is because I love the job so much. I already know the names and faces of each and every one of my students, and from the writing samples they've provided me, I have found I care about and relate to their potentials, difficulties, strengths, and dreams. My work is cut out for me; they are in the 10th grade, and many write more poorly than the average 6th grader. However, all of them wish to improve their grades, and all of them want to go to college. I am not sure they all know how different an environment college really is, or how much responsibility and work is required to be successful.
I am trying to shape my students into responsible, independent students, thinkers, and workers, but it is not easy. Some of them face so many challenges: one is an expectant mother at 16; many are alone with one parent and trying hard to make ends meet, and some have the care of other family members to manage along with their own lives. About 20% of them are ESL students and cannot even understand the homework I assign; one young man, who is incredibly bright, asked me to please write the homeworks on paper for him so he can bring them home to his cousin for translation.
There is something bringing me down about my native English speakers, and that is their blatantly incorrect use of language and refusal to do the assigned work, even though they have the ability. I have students who have moved from Russia, Ecuador, Azerbaijan, Turkey, Uzbekistan, Jordan, Lebanon, and Armenia as few as one or two years ago, and they are so concerned that their English and their writing improve as quickly as possible, because they want to be good students and to succeed. Some want to be doctors or teachers, or just leaders of their community as business owners or counsellors. Very few of my native-born students have such a work ethic or presence of self and mind. On Day Three I was clamoring to throttle them all and find some way to force them to see their advantages and their potential to be leaders and collaborators with their foreign-born peers...but force seldom solves problems. My greatest challenge is to help all of my students to see, for themselves, beyond differences in culture and interests, and begin to help each other achieve their mutual goals of improved writing, improved grades, graduation and college admission.
I have chosen a rigorous, multi-cultural, and genre-diverse selection of works for them to read throughout the year. I have many kinesthetic learners who will have no patience for writing papers, so I am trying to think of projects they can do to demonstrate their grasp of Literature and its elements.
In short, I suppose I am asking anyone out there with ideas or suggestions as to how to approach this task. I must maintain my own sanity while I show my students the things that lie within their minds, and how to articulate their feelings, ideas, and criticisms.
Oh, and by the way, I am down below 160 lbs. and eating healthy everyday; I pack a good lunch, eat a healthy breakfast everyday prior to work, and drink plenty of water. Mostly, though, I think the weight loss is due to not being able to eat whenever I want to, which is good. I am finding comfort in thinking, writing, and planning for something about which I have a talent and a passion, rather than in food and the temporary pleasure of it, which distracted from but did not erase the tedious tasks at hand.