Going to try to get these thoughts out of my head and get them somewhere else. Here seems like a good place.
Will update as I figure out how to write a blog. I'm definitely not good at writing but I think it will help me out some.
This forum is a great place for mental downloads and the folk here are very supportive. You will find some that are in the same state as you are, I know I am grateful to be able to clear my mind here.