Jeff - that's a great post. Please don't delete it.
Today I want to talk about sucking. We as a society have a negative connotation to this word, and in Jeff's post I think you see where it can be taken as a sort of negative lean. But it doesn't have to. I think it's ok to suck. I think you need to embrace the sucking. I think sucking is real, it's life.
Because, I think this. I think we all suck in pretty much everything we do. Everything.
So we suck compared to our peers? No. Compared to the best? Yes, we do. Always. I referenced this earlier, that I was bad at biking because I went 14 mph when I started. I remember the first century I ever did. I went 12.x mph. I sucked. I sucked the high hog of heaven and that's the plain truth of the matter.
But you know, that's ok. Because I was sucking less than myself of the previous year. And in the end, I think we really want to strive to suck less. But also in that same end, we still just all suck.
You play chess as a hobby? I bet you suck at it. Put you in front of a grand master, and I bet you lose in minutes and feel like a douche. You like to cook? You food is good, I enjoy eating it. But I bet it sucks compared to even the lowest level chef out there. Your job? I bet you suck at it too compared to the best people who do the same thing.
Yeah, we all suck. And I'm sure there are cases out there where someone reading this doesn't suck at something. But the vast majority of us suck at what we do as a living, as a hobby, in life. We suck at everything. There, that's about it.
But who cares? Do you know what Karpov said when asked if he had any other hobbies besides chess? He said stamp collecting and Marxism. Kasparov replied, "Nothing." You can maybe be the absolute best at something but that leaves you nothing else. Nothing, literally nothing, else.
I could go on like this for a while. But since I suck at writing and making a point, I'll just move on and try to poorly get to the overall idea of this. Nobody cares if you suck at something. In fact, the less you suck at 1 particular thing the more you probably suck at other things. Some of the most amazing CEOs suck royal balls at being husbands & fathers. Again, like I said, I suck at this so I digress.
Isn't life about just sucking less. Relative to the collective on this site, I maybe don't suck so much at biking. Relative to the people I race, maybe I suck a bit more. Or maybe a lot more. And on and on. Most of everything I do I just try to suck less than I did before. Life is a scale of Suck, try to get yourself as far from the Total Suck classification as you can. But know that when you wake up every day and go to bed at night, probably everything you do will be some effort in sucking at something, even if it is staying in bed. I bet you suck at that too.
The point is this. Sucking is not bad. Sucking is life. And this is ok. Knowing that if you try something and fail at it is perfectly acceptable means you have a leg up on a lot of people out there. A lot of people out there think they should do something only if they don't suck. Far from it. Suck and be proud if sucking. And then maybe try more and suck less. Then print up bumper stickers that say "Try More, Suck Less." And live life with that mantra.
I think being humble is an exercise in knowing you suck at things. Maybe not compared to everyone you know, or even everyone they know. Maurice had this down pat. He was just a shit-storm on the bike for a lot of years. Even when he was the best, the absolute best, he was always modest because he knew there were other people out there better than him, faster than him. They just hadn't lined up next to him that day. And while he was fully aware that he did not suck in the races that we all do, compared to the big people he sucked just like everyone else.
If Kobe Bryant or Wayne Gretsky or Alberto Contador are reading this, then fine. You don't suck. But the rest of us, sure, we're just doing our thing trying to enjoy life, making it all fit together because we are not defined by the things we do not suck at. We're defined by the whole package.
And in the end, that's really all we have. Because when you add it all up, all the things that you probably suck at, you can come up with a life that doesn't suck. And that, my sucky readers, is what not sucking is all about.
PS. This doesn't mean you can't ride today. Get out there and deal with it.
PPS. If you have to ride in rush hour, do it in the morning. More accidents happen at night than in the morning because people are more anxious about going home than they are about going to work.
PPPS. You suck. I actually own this book.